Whew....

I feel like I am on the roller coaster ride of my life and it is good!!! A lot has happened to Superman and I since I last blogged. Superman hurt his back (again) at work. The doctor thinks it's a herniated disk, but we wouldn't know for sure until he gets an MRI. He was out of work for three days last week, and on Friday his boss said he could either stay out of work until his back got better (which could be a long while, considering that he might need surgery) or he can chose to be laid off and collect unemployment.
Though I knew that there was potential for him to get laid off, I was more overwhelmed at the fact that MY OWN perfect planned had gotten messed up. Let me back track a little bit... I have been working three jobs since August in order to pay off our debt a quick as possible. I had the whole thing mapped out, and when this happened I realized, it needed to be GOD's perfect plan, not mine. I knew I was getting burned out, but I was unwilling to give up. Two weeks ago, I went to bed with chest pains and woke up with them the next morning. By the afternoon, my left arm was shaking uncontrollably and my toes were tingling and I couldn't catch my breath. So they rushed me in a ambulance (without insurance) to the ER because they thought I was having a heart attack. It turns out it was only anxiety, but it was scary!!! I ended up taking the entire weekend off and it was great ot relax! I realized that that sitaution could have been a lot worse and I was thankful God used it as a warning sign to STOP DOING IT ON MY OWN AND TRUST HIM!!!
Talk about learning a lesson... There is no better way in life to learn to trust God than to have situations in your be "messed up" that are beyond your control to fix. That is what is happening now. When I first found out Brian was laid off, I was devastated because I felt like now I working three jobs because I had to and not because I wanted to. I felt overwhelmed and stuck! Not to mention I was angry at God- How could he let this happen? Wasn't my good intentions of becoming debt-free rapidly His will?
As Sunday progressed on and the day got busier, I spent time with my mentors and discovered that I have been in control of me and not God. I had sought to do things my way, hoping God was on board. So last night at midnight I repented of my anger, and my control and relinquished power of my life to God. I feel like a new person, just like 2 Corintahians 5:17 says! I have such peace and joy in my life like I've never experinced before! I was depressed and angry and trying to make life happen on my own terms, but now I see I am nothing without Christ and HIs redemption for me!!!
I am also at peace about my work sitaution because I know that my life is not my own. God doesn't want me to kill myself working this hard, He wants me to trust Him! I am in the process of looking for ONE full-time position and I am going to take the civil service test for a state job in November. Ideally, I would like to work from home and I know of this school that teaches medical transcriptioning that is done from home and has the potential to make up to $40,000/year.
This brings me to Superman's job situation. God has really been doing a good work in our lives. We are part of this leadership team that is planting a sister church to ours in our neighborhood. Superman wants to do full-time ministry, so we are applying to Mid-Atlantic Baptist Seminary. He is very excited about it!! Also, Superman trained this guy Jon to be his protegeand was his kitchen manger at Uno's. Now Jon is the kitchen manager at Ruby Tuesday's and has been begging Superman for some time now to work for him. Now Superman will have a job flexible enough to allow him to continue to do ministry and the Lord's work.
Praise God for all He is doing in our lives and for His forgiveness. I am most thankful for His peace which surpasses all understanding!!!