Thursday, November 13, 2008

At A Crossroads..

Well...
It looks like Superman and I are at a crossroads again. I am very thankful to God that He provided a job for Superman. I am thankful though that it happened because I learned to trust God more.
I have been looking for ONE good paying job (as opposed to my three awful paying jobs) for some time now. I got a great job offer, but with a huge price tag. For a while I wasn't enjoying my insurance job because there were times when I found myself bored out of my mind or doing ridiculous tasks. But lately, since I've been trusting God with my life, things have gotten better at that job. I have even had a chance to get to know my manager's dad a little better. I bet you're wondering why I need to know family members, and it's because he is my manager's boss, and the man who pays me. His secretary has been out all month and will be for the rest of November because of an accident, which has allowed me to get more hours, conveniently while Superman was laid off. So I have been doing her job and mine. He even offered to increase my hours permanently and increase my pay slightly if I quit one of my other jobs with Gloria. The real dilemna is not Gloria though (though that of itself is going to be a BIG issue), it's the job offer he presented to me. You see, he is the state manager and he is from Syracuse NY and he wants to move his office there in July when his lease is up here. He wants me to become his full-time secretary and offered me $30,000/ year with benefits. That is more than I am making now with three jobs and I don't have benefits. The only catch is that I would have to move to Syracuse. I don't like Syracuse because they get more snow than we do in Albany and when I lived in Rochester. I didn't want to tell Superman, but we all know how bad (I mean good) I am at keeping big things like that a secret. I didn't want to tell him because I figured I already knew what he was going to say (NO), so I didn't want to bother. I know Superman was praying about going to Seminary and was excited to get his feet wet doing ministry here. But to my surprise, he is open to the idea and is even fasting today to seek God about it. Now it wouldn't be till late this summer, but my boss wants in answer by January. I don't know how I feel about it. Superman thinks this could be the answer to my prayer. He doesn't think that opportunities like this come around often and I have looked and haven't been able to find another job here in that field that pays as much. I do also love the company and would have always wanted to be involved with it. I don't think moving for a job is a good idea; I think moving for God is a better one. What should I do?
I feel like I am at a crossroads with this ordeal. I know that there are many decisions we make in life that are good, but which one is right?
I know none of my family wants to hear this because I am still young and haven't been married that long, but I have burning desire to have a baby. I am so afraid that the reason I haven't had one yet is because I am not able to. Superman says it may not be God's timing yet, though he admits to wanting one too. Why do people that don't want kids yet get pregnant and those of us who do, aren't having any? I know I am talking crazy. I never thought that having children would be so involved. Whew....

At A Crossroads..

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I am the wife of the world's most amazing man (this is not up for debate, it's fact) and I am loving life!!