More Poetry... I've been writing like crazy!

Here are some more... for your reading pleasure!

4-17-09
Heart Cry
My heart’s cry is
Knowing God more
Doing His will
Living for the One
I love
I worship
Seeking Him with
All my heart
I run hard
After the Creator
The Author
The Finisher
Of my mustard seed faith
Believing God is
Who He says
I know His plans for me
Are good
He always has my best
Interest at heart
No matter how much
I don’t see it
Regardless of my feelings
Which are fickle
Fleeting
Finite
I entrust all
I am
And all I have
To the Lord
Because of Him
I have life
Breath
Purpose
Power
Most of all
Peace
Which passes
All understanding
Guarding my heart
And life in Jesus
God is at work
Within me
To will
To do
As He see fits
Not my will
My agenda
Even my plans
Will fail
And fall short
In comparison to the
Incomprehensible
Inconceivable
Irrevocable
Everlasting goodness
Of God
In and through
My life
Surrendering my heart
I lay prostrate before
The King
The Most High God
The Everlasting Father
My Daddy
Asking for His grace
Mercy
Love
To pour over me
Cleansing me from
Sin that so easily entangles
Entraps
Ensnares
Pressing forward
I fix my eyes on Jesus
My hearts cry fulfilled!
---"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended: but one thing I do, forgetting those things, which are behind, and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:13-14 (NKJV)---

Superhero
I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
Holding up mirrors to the wicked
Saving God-followers from sin
Pointing out their faults
And shortcomings

I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
Letting everyone know what
Is right and wrong
Showing them which path they’re on

I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
I stand for all that’s right and good
Justice and truth
Liberty and freedom

I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
Quick with the tongue
I shine light on iniquity
Arguing my rightness for all

I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
I have no problem showing
Specks in others eyes
I know they appreciate it

I am a Superhero
A vigilante of sorts
Saving everyone but myself
All the while not shining
The mirror on the one
With the biggest plank
Protruding from my scalp

I am no longer a Superhero
But a hypocrite
A coward
A sinner
In need of grace
Humbled by my God
---"Judge not, that you be not judged…And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?… Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye…" Matthew 7:1, 3, 5 (NKJV)---

Being Beth
I want to write a poem
But I don’t know what to say
I pray my Savior Jesus
Please guide me all the way

Help me to be Beth my Lord
To be true to myself
Me in You and You in me,
All in one accord

Thank you that you give me strength
To stand up to the enemy
To say no thanks, no way, no how
That’s really not for me

When I don’t know what to do
Or what to think or say
I get down on both my knees
And I begin to pray

Jesus, Son of God
Please take my life now
It’s Yours
To You alone I bow. Amen.
---"Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world." 1 John 4:4 (NIV)---

4-21-09
This Incredible Journey
All my life I’ve lived for them
Giving in to their every whim
Picking up masks, and putting them on
Walking around, portraying a con
I’ve never lived my life for me
Or for the One that set me free
For the approval of others and for their love
Never yielding to the Father above
I became a chameleon every day
Always letting them have their way
Living for them from day till night
Never once did I put up a fight
Like a puppet on strings I played the part
Performing the act without any heart
I longed for happiness in my life
All they gave me was negativity and strife
Taking over every thought and prayer in me
I lived defeated instead of free
I never knew who I was or why I was created
Just that I wanted to loved, not hated
But all that has recently changed
My priorities are being rearranged
I have begun to question my worth
And if I was just an accident at birth
Who am I Lord? Why am I here?
Is my existence on earth just mere?
Out of the mire and muck I emerge
Into His marvelous goodness I’m submerged
No longer letting others rob me
Once blinded by selfishness and pity, now I see
I found the path I am supposed to be on
Removed from darkness, I head for the dawn
This journey I’m on has taken years
The road behind me is paved with tears
In order to find my true purpose
I search for direction beneath the surface
Everything I thought about myself was a lie
Pseudo-confidence was my best disguise
I focused my life on what I thought they wanted
Never knowing I was just being taunted
I have a Creator who lives up above
And He looks down on me with mercy and love
He calls me back, and nearer to Him
Letting go, I jump out on a limb
I was created to glorify the King
And to soar to new heights with my own wings
Christ’s power is within me, I know this is true
Because of Him, I am no longer blue
I know my birth was not a mistake
Being true to myself and no longer a fake
No more am I a puppet or marionette
I know I am chosen, and nobody’s pet
I can’t lose something that I never had
Living this way, this long makes me sad
Why I waited till now I don’t get
But living for God is a much better fit
I don’t know who I am completely
But through His word, I now see
I have a purpose for being alive
Living solely for God, I take the dive
No longer listening or looking to others
I only follow the One I call Father!
---"You’ll be disappointed if you look at people too much, if you look around, you’ll distracted; if you look within yourself, you’ll be discouraged. It’s only when you look unto Jesus, that you’ll develop confidence and peace." Anonymous---

4-24-09
Trinity
God before I lift baby and mom
During this crazy time, Lord be the calm
May baby come to know You the way I do
And bring You honor till her days are through
Through the laughs and trials
The standstill and the miles
God be the solid rock she clings to
And may her service to You Lord, be the song her heart sings true
Love, peace and grace to you, dear Trinity
I can’t wait to meet the one who’s already loved to infinity!
---"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made…" Psalm 139:13-14a---

4-30-09
Be the Center
I’ve known the Lord for eleven years
And in that time, there have been lots of tears
Encouraging words have come from within
And helped me to release my sin
I learned about God and to hear His voice
I realize living for God was a choice
For three years I studied God’s word
All through it all, His voice I had heard
I discovered passion I didn’t known I had
God delivered me from a childhood gone bad
Looking back I’ve progressed real far
Yet somehow, I stand here feeling marred
How is it possibly to have become so stagnant?
Where has all the progress went?
I can’t believe I’ve gone full circle
Lord I am in need of a miracle
My faith is weak and my marriage a mess
Happy times have turned to distress
I am embarrassed for the lack of growth in us
Empty words fall and gather like dust
Of all in the group, we’ve progressed the least
Since October, we’ve unleashed a beast
Of selfishness and resentment toward one another
Playing the blame game with the other
I lay before You God, prostrate
Please remove from me all hate
Toward him, toward others and especially toward me
I look to You to make me free
God I am humbled by my behavior
No longer can I be my savior
I spend so much time pointing my finger
And blaming others for my anger
The finger needs to point toward me
Reflecting in the mirror for me to see
My true colors have been revealed
And right now I need to be healed
I apologize for all the stifling I’ve caused
I hear You voice God, through the pause
Putting God in my marriage is priority number one
I need to focus less on me, and more on the Son
God I ask for You to come back in and be the center
Thank You for speaking to us through our mentors.

3-27-09
Head Jumble
The pain, the agony
Is too much too bear
His intentions are right
I know he is good
But how come I can’t see it?
Why is it hidden?
I miss him terribly
I really do
I wish what he said
Was what he could prove
I guess I just need to cling to his words
And forget that his actions are no good
Maybe it’s not intentional at all
Maybe it’s me
I’ve given up hope, as you can see
I have adopted the attitude
"Why bother?"
But I realize it’s not just him that suffers
When I don’t take care of myself
The way I ought
I feel crummy too
And very, very blue
I wish I could just easily
Let this thing go
But for some reason
I am still holding on
From this point on
It’s time to take care
Of me, for me
Even if he cannot appreciate it
I don’t want to continue
Living my life this way
So I must become a chameleon
So many times I’ve tried on my own
To change what I’ve become
I want to be a woman
No longer a girl
Who sits idly by and waits
For life to come
Though this my life
And I should take it back
I have decided
To let go of the reigns
And turn it over to the One
Who knows me through and through
I lay down my deep disappointment
In him and also in me
I want to be beautiful
I want to be strong
But most of all, I want to be desirable
I know what I’ve become
And I am not proud of it
I know I’ve changed
But I still love him
I am not ready to let him go
Though it’s deeply saddening
That he no longer wants me
I must rest in knowing God does
I need to come to a place in my life
Where I am okay
With who I am
What I’ve become
And where I am at in life
Until I embrace
His knowledge and truth
I will never overcome
I am victorious
Because of Jesus
And His life
He poured out for me
I am thankful that
I am my beloved’s and
He is mine
I need to learn to rest
And worry less about him
And more about God in me
Am I doing all that I can…
To bring honor and glory to Him?
Does my life reflect who He is?
Have I truly surrendered all to His plan?
I am more than more a conqueror
Have I embraced it?
Or do I still cower away?
God be my rock
Be my salvation
The God in whom I place all trust
Take my life
And make it new
Change me from the inside
Be my rock
And my comfort
Give me the strength
To overcome
Or at least endure
Help me to forgive
No matter how hurt I am
This is the way life is for now
I need to learn to embrace it
This truth still remains:
He loves me but
He doesn’t want me
Yet I forgive him still!
---"…Even as Christ forgave you, so you must also forgive others." Colossians 3:13---

4-30-09
Inner Plight
God be the center of all I do
Deliver me from feeling blue
I am heavy-hearted and deeply sad
I know I must’ve made You mad
Failure is my true reward
I relied on me, and not Your sword
I was doing fine for a spell
Then my head began to swell
I thought I was okay
As long as I did things my way
But I have been mistaken
Walking around, I was faking
Pretending I could save myself
And that I was the answer to acquiring wealth
But Lord I was wrong for thinking that I could
Solve all my problems just as You would
I thought I knew what was best for me
Living like I was truly free
But the truth of the matter remains
I need You like the grass needs rain
I have deceived myself into thinking
That I was okay, even though I was sinking
You oh Lord have shone my the light
And revealed to me my inner plight
I don’t want to be disobedient to You
And I want You to know I love You too
Help me to match my words to my actions
In order to stop, I need brakes and traction
I find myself in sinking sand
If only You would stretch out your hand
And deliver me though I don’t deserve it
Igniting a fire that is no longer lit
A passion for the lost deep within me
Showing others how they can be free
Taking my eyes off of me and the trouble I’m in
Please forgive me, for I have sinned
Refocus my life and change my vision
A heart transplant through spiritual incision
Out with myself and in with Your desires
Help me out of the muck and mire
Lord I know I’ll be okay
If I just do things Your way
Not my will but Yours be done
I know the victory has already been won!

Daddy
Daddy’s a crazy and cool guy
He like to tell jokes and he loves to spy
Video camera in his hand
He acts like he’s in command
Warheads is his favorite song
When it comes to math, he’s always wrong
After work, he is always cranky
And his best friends name is Frankie!

The Porcelain Figurine
Creamy white is what she wore
When she broke upon the floor
Her pirouette is no more
Her beauty I did adore

How I Loved Thee
Oh my love, how I loved thee by and by
Thou were my all, I lived for thee each day
Thou meant so much to much, I want to cry
How I love thee, but our love shan’t go on

Our love was like that of the morning dove
Thy kiss, better than the scent of roses
Pure faithfulness from thee was what I got
But have slipped from thy gracious poses

But I have failed thee and have let thee down
I was so unworthy to wear thy crown

Muddled
Muddled in the backseat
Between joyfulness and fear
The two the rival against each other
Suddenly compete for a similar goal
Companionship with me the prize
If I try to side with joy
Fear intimidates
And if I try to side with fear
Joy permeates
Back and forth
I rock and sway
Titter-tottering between them both
Hoping for a stalemate
I hold my breath
And continue to sit
Muddled in the backseat

Dear Superman
Two and a half years ago I made a vow
But I have broken my promises somehow
I promised I would always love you
And till my last breath I’d always be true
Somewhere between then and now
I’ve changed the direction to whom I bow
I looked to you to change in me
All the things I need to be free
But I realize now it’s all been a lie
As I look back, I let out a sigh
I had put my life in your hands, not God’s
And lived all this time in a fascade
I relied on you to seek God for me
As if by you, I could walk free
So for this very thing I apologize
With a heavy-heart, I close my eyes
I tell you now it doesn’t end there
With this next issue, I know you’re very aware
I’ve shifted from looking for God through you
To blaming you for all the things I don’t do
It’s not your fault I haven’t changed
I have become self-loathing and out of range
Since we’ve gotten married, I’ve become selfish and ungrateful
To the point where being around me, I know is painful
I am responsible for the things I do and say
For the last four years, it’s all been my way
It hasn’t been you who’s stifled or hindered me
But the one who’s reflecting in the mirror I see
I have been a mouthy, unruly wife
Because of that, there has been strife
I’m really sorry for all the pain I’ve caused
And as a result, a love almost lost
I don’t want to lose my best friend
Rosie the Riveter has come to an end
I have been redeemed by the blood of Christ
So I surrender all this negativity in my life
In light of all this, I have a question now
Is it too late to renew my vows?

Poetry

Here are a few of the poetry I've been writing lately; sorry, it's super long, but I want to know what you think!

Beauty for Ashes
I was walking in the forest one day
When I came upon a stream
As I gazed in the clean, clear water
I began to dream
I want my life to be that pure
I whispered to myself, "if only there was something, someone…
Who knew and had the cure"
Then I saw the heavens part and a light shown down on me
I first I was afraid and I held back
But then a voice said assuringly,
"The stream is crystal clear because I have made it that way
And I long to make your life that pure
But there is a price to pay
You must be willing to lay down your life
And give it all to me
Lay at my feet all your pain, hurt and strife
For I will hear your pleas
When the streams run dry
I will send the rain
I will pour our my compassion
When you are in pain
So let the streams flow
And let the tears run
For I will be with you wherever you go
Always remember my love for you
Anywhere you go
I’ll be there too
I will be the wind that sways the tall grasses
And I will give you beauty for ashes."
---"He gives beauty for ashes, strength for fear, gladness for mourning and peace for despair."--- Crystal Lewis

The Heart of a Potato, Newly Picked
A heart
Stone-cold
Beating underneath
A tired flesh
Stale
Bitter
Heavy-Laden
Frigid
Covered in muck
Deteriorating and dark
Black blood
Seeping through
Stone gauges
It is alive
Surviving by
Every heartbeat
Callused and consumed
--- "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?"---Jeremiah 17:9 (KJV)

Through the Eyes of Eight
Two girls were playing at cousin’s house
One was loud; one quiet as a mouse
Many games were played under the sun
Like hide-and-seek, oh how fun!
One ran inside while the other one played
Girl went to find the one that strayed
She soon discovered where the other was
As she gazed in the room it all was a fuzz
She couldn’t believe what her eyes had seen
Could this all just be a dream?
Such a horrific sight she did behold
One entered the room, as she was told
Girl saw what he was doing to her
But didn’t know what to call what had occurred
He was touching her in ways
That no one should touch children who play
It didn’t stop there for the man of the hour
For now he had both girls under his power
What happened next was really a blur
But they will remember it forever and ever, I’m sure
This was the end of the end for the two girls
From that point on, life was a whirl
The pain, the anguish and strife
Had suddenly consumed their life
The two young girls had been forced to become woman fast
And learn the reality that good things don’t last
One grew up empowered; one was defeated
God restored one, while the other is cheated
This is very sad story to tell
I bet your wondering how I know it so well
This story I told is very true
Because of course, I am one of the two!
---"And we know that in all things God works together for the good of those who love Him, and have been called according to His purpose for them." ---Romans 8:28 (NIV)

It all Adds up to This
I died yesterday
My death was short and painful
I have died alone

Salvation
Do you ever remember a time in your life…
When there was no pain, heartache or strife?
Do you know peace? Have you met him?
When was the last time you went out on a limb?
Did anyone ever tell you are loved?
Not just liked, but truly beloved
Not because of what you have or haven’t done
But because of God and His only Son
He loves you with an everlasting love
One that can only be from above
He sent His Son to die for you
This action I know to be true
He was beaten bled and died on a tree
So that you and I could walk free
Freedom that comes only from the peace He gives
Until you know God, you’ll never know how good it is
He knows your heart; He sees your struggle to survive
He wants to know if you’re willing to take the dive?
Will you accept what He’s done for you?
And watch yourself experience a breakthrough
He quietly calls; He gently knocks
Do you dare to live outside of the box?
I know you think you’re "good enough" the way you are
But do you only know God from afar?
Do you know who God is, for real?
Or do you think He’s just some ideal?
I can tell you He’s not some cosmic killjoy who’s out to get you
He longs to know you and what you do
Why do blame God for the bad things in your life?
Is God truly responsible for all our strife?
Or is it that evil exists in this world because of the fall
But desires to know us all
Do you believe or turn away?
Do you think it’s true what I’ve had to say?
Don’t just take what I’ve said as the end all
Test what I say and give God a call
See if He won’t come to you when you reach out
May you learn truly what His love’s all about
I pray you accept God for yourself
Knowing God is good for more than your health! God Bless.
---"But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."---Romans 5:8 (NKJV)

Springtime Blues
Today is the day; spring has sprung
I smell the fresh air; it’s time for fun
I feel renewed and I have hope
Winter is gone; I now can cope
Why do I still feel so blue?
When I could be outside, with plenty to do!
I need a lifestyle change to come
Now is the time to adjust some
I can’t do it alone; I have tried and failed
The "My Way" ship truly has sailed!
God I come and beg of You
To deliver me from feeling blue
Change me like only You can
Make me into a new woman
Spring is my favorite season
No longer do I feel life breezin’
I am tired of the way I feel
Stale and dull weren’t part of the deal
My mood was supposed to improve with the flowers
But sitting here, I cringe and cower
I am not defeated; I know that for sure
But I know that I am no longer the cure
You God are my motivation
Master of my alteration
Give me the strength to overcome
Because of the blood of Your precious Son
I take back my life in the name of the Lord
No longer moping or acting bored
A proactive stand I take right now
And declare to selfishness I will not bow!
God be the victor of all I do!
I surrender all I am to You!

Depravity
Corrupt politicians
Lead our "good nation"
Subvert adolescents
Are the next generation for our "good"
Turpitude villains
Were "good people" who snapped
Perverted criminals
Used to be "good children"
Immoral pastors
Tired of being "good"
Profane children
Most are "good natured"
Being good doesn’t get you to heaven
In fact, it leads straight to hell
"Good men" will see the fire
No matter what you’ve done
Or didn’t do
It’s not "good enough"
It never will be
If you don’t know the truth
You are not free
Goodness cannot buy freedom
It doesn’t lead to redemption
There is no reward for how "good" you are
Call me a liar
Spit in my face
Curse at my God if you want to
But know this
Hear me now
We will answer to the same God in the end
Will your goodness get you a ticket to glory?
My relationship is my ticket
I have been set free
I am no longer a "good" person
But one who lives in freedom
No fear for the end of my life
We all know that life is but a moment
How are you living yours?
Will you trade goodness for freedom
Before life blinks and its all over?
---"That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." ---Romans 10:9-10 (NKJV)

Freedom
Today’s the day to chose a side
As you come, lay down your pride
Whom today will you serve with your life?
Will it be freedom or will it be strife?
You live your life to please yourself
You have lots of toys; you’ve accumulated wealth
There’s a void inside you’ve tried to fill
You are say you’re good; you’ve never killed
But are you free, inside and out?
Do you know what real love is all about?
Did you ever feel that something was missing?
Are you truly free, or merely existing?
The good news is that freedom has come
No longer will your life be ho-hum!
That void you feel will never be filled
Until you’re willing to lay down your self and your will
God designed with a spot in you for Him
Come on, just go out on a limb!
I know you think that you’ll be okay
So long as you think and do good things everyday
But the truth of the matter is plain to see
Charity and compassion will not make you free
Sure you’ll feel good about what you did for a spell
But what happens when you stop doing so well?
Will that void be fulfilled, or will it be dry?
People can tell when you smile or sigh
I know you think that freedom’s not free
It’s true you know, He bled and died on a tree
But He did it so that you can have access to freedom
Jesus wants you to be able to hear Him
It doesn’t matter what your vice is
Stuff, dating and drinking will at some point just fizz
No matter what you own or what you do
Until you know freedom, you will always be blue
You see, you can be happy but feelings are fleeting
When you know freedom, you follow His leading
You were created for a purpose and reason
God will reveal Himself in due season
He has been knocking on the door of your heart
Like Cupid’s arrow, grab hold of the dart
I pray today that freedom would find you
And then in your life you finally have breakthrough
I know you think I am being too preachy
But is this kind of freedom found in Nietzche?
So I ask you again, who is your Master?
What fills your void? Who occupies your caster?
Will it continue to be yourself or things you look to?
Or will it be Jesus, and His true freedom you pursue?
I’ll ask you again, whose side are you on?
And I want you to think before you respond!
--- "God loved the world so very, very much that he gave his only Son. Because he did that, everyone who believes in him will not lose his life, but will live for ever (in freedom)."--- John 3:16 (WENT)

I Go Walking...

As some of you may know, when Superman went to Seminary orientation the other day, he was told he was accepted, but not until the fall. They were not able to process his paperwork in time, as a few of the needed recommendation forms were VERY late. Superman and I made this deal on Monday that if he didn't call me, then he didn't get accepted. Well I am not someone to take no for an answer very easily, so at lunch time I called him. He said, "I got in, I'll talk to you about the details later." I interpreted this to mean he would talk to me about the living arrangements and such later. Me and my big mouth just can't be patient; I went on Facebook and immediately announced how excited I was that he got in. Well, this got me a ton of replies and congratulations! I got in the car and the first thing he says to me is that he'd wished I had WAITED to post anything on Facebook! After explaining to me the whole story (see above), I realized how hasty I had truly been. Now this blog is not a pity party, but rather a lesson for me. Anyone that knows me, knows that it takes me an awful long time to get over things- I sometimes think I could stay mad forever! This is a very bad trait of mine. Well, up until this point, I have been learning about the importance of God's timing, and I have been seeking him to change me and make me more like Him. I had seen any fruits of that prayers until that day. I, at first was very disappointed and mad. I was really looking forward to moving to Rotterdam (a lot of my close friends are there and it's closer to the fam) and was upset that I had to stay in that apartment paying the higher of the two rents. Instead of lashing out on Superman and making him feel worse (he was a bit disappointed too!), I just sat there in silence. A few tears ran down my cheek, but by the end of the car ride, I was fine. Not just put on a show fine, but really fine. I couldn't believe it! Not only was I fine, but I felt a tremendous sense of peace- who know! I realize now that it's was actually a blessing in disguise. We have so much going on, we are trying to get another car, pay off debt, and the last thing we needed was Superman to start school and try to move- all within the same week. Also, Superman is sick right now, so he would have had a hard time his "first week." The reason I was not as upset as I thought I could have been (I even surprised Superman as well as myself with my reaction!), is that my hope this whole time has been in God, not in Seminary. I know that "God is at work in our lives, to will and to do to His good pleasure!" I am thankful for this valuable lesson.
The weather has also contributed to my great mood. Spring always brings me a renewed sense of hope and it drives away the negativity! I went for a walk yesterday to the park and back after work, and it was awesome! I love being able to breath fresh air and take in God's awesome splendor- I always use that opportunity to talk with my Daddy! I am learning so much; I have started reading "Help Me I'm Insecure" by Joyce Meyer. I know what you're thinking, "it sounds cheesy; you should have read this a long time ago." It may sound cheesy, but God is using it. I am finally ready to embrace who God is. I am learning to "take ever thought captive under the submission of the Holy Spirit." And you know what, I am changing! For the first time in my life, what I am reading is sinking in! "I am the righteousness of Christ!" There are so many evident changes in my life- I have been reading my Bible on my down time and on my lunch break at work, and I have even started walking to and from work- I love it! The biggest change for me is the fact that I have been waking with or before my alarm. Anyone that knows me, knows how much of a struggle that has truly been for me FOR YEARS! Praise God for in His goodness and mercy; He has not only overcome death and the grave, but also ALL of my failures! I have never been so joyful or thankful in my life!

Life on Pause

I feel like life is on pause right now. Superman is right now at Seminary orientation finding out if he was even accepted into school. As of this morning we still don't know officially. The assistant at the Schenectady campus was surprised when Superman called her Friday afternoon and told her he still hadn't heard anything. She said she would call the Tennessee campus and have them call us, but we are still waiting for that call. So, Superman took it upon himself to go to Orientation- I don't know if he got in, what apartment we're living in, when we can move in, etc., etc. So, my whole house is packed, and it's on pause until Superman calls me today. He truly believes that God called him to Seminary, and so the fact that they're taking their time (though current students have said the same thing happened with them), is seriously nerve-racking! I have put my trust in God and know that He will work it out. Until next time, I live in limbo!!!

Betty Boop vs. Superman!

Let it be known that Superman makes the best eggplant parm I've ever had! I just had some for lunch today after eating it for dinner and it was still just as good! I was sad when the eggplant was all gone and there was only pasta left! You have to try it! I know that my hamburgers and mashed tonight (my turn to cook) will pale in comparison!! But it's okay 'cause it's that good!!!!

Blogging

I got into blogging because I wanted to stay in touch with the family and yet I only have one follower! Why is that? Aunt Moe, I've written more than four!

Welcome to my life!

Wow... Where to start??? I miss doing this... Well, right now my house is in a state of disarray because we are moving!!! There are boxes everywhere... it feels like a maze! But it is an exciting time for us. I started a new FULL-TIME job three weeks ago, Superman got accepted to Seminary and he starts a new job soon! God has been blessing us beyond belief... it's probably because He is sick of hearing me whine all the time...just kidding.
My new job is going great and it's the first time in my life where I have a job I truly love. I can't wait to get up and go to work everyday and I love that I don't know the job completely, because it's also challenging! I am still at JCPenney's, but I only work there once or twice every other week to keep the discount. I am excited that I get to home every night. It is also great that it is down the street from my house... for now. Making $20 an hour is not too bad either.
We are moving into a smaller apartment in a nicer neighborhood. We are moving to Rotterdam. For those of you who don't know, that is only 15 minutes from Schoharie and 20 from Albany. We are going from a three-bedroom to a two-bedroom, but there is a washer/dryer and a dishwasher (this is great news for our current dishwasher, Superman!) and even has off-street parking. The other great thing is that it's $300 cheaper every month- which will help us continue to honor God but eliminating our debts. We are very excited about it. We still have to wait two weeks to move into it, but I pray the time flys by.
Superman up and quit his job at Ruby Tuesday because he felt like he was being disobedient to God by keeping it. Who am I to hinder God's calling on his life? Though I wanted him to put in his two-week notice and quit the right way, Superman insisted he just say goodbye that night and not go back. Right now he is not working at all, but that will change in a few weeks. He was offered a job helping this elderly woman we know. Marie is the cousin of a friend and she is not only elderly, but has demetia. She needs someone to cook for her and stay with her during the day. This is right up Superman's alley, considering he is going to also start Nursing school in the fall. This new job is felxible, part-time and he will be able to do his homework there. It's truly an answer to prayer!! We are thankful for God's guiding hand!
The longer Superman and I have been married, the better we seem to get along and master co-existing. We are doing better than ever. Ever since we are being mentored by our pastor and God grabbed Superman's heart, things are much better!! Praise God! It's amazing that though I would like Superman to change at much faster speeds, God is changing him- and me. It's great!
I have been feeling really sad lately at the same time though! (Ain't it just like me to ruin a great moment by dwelling on something sour?) I am feeling like the struggle of being a good friend versus being a wife. I feel like when I got married, I made my decision to give up a social life for a life with my husband. I wanted so badly to be home at night so I could learn to embrace "Betty Housewife." I enjoy learning to cook, but I also wanted to see friends and family sometimes. Where is the balance? I think I need to just establish a better system or something. I need more routine and to be spontaneous at the same time. AHHHH!!! I miss having close friends and family to talk to. Sometimes I feel like Superman is my only friend and I'm sure he gets sick of hearing it all the time. This issue makes my head spin!
All in all though, life is good and God is great! I am truly blessed and thankful!